Huge poll numbers for Obama, a McCain campaign in seeming chaos and disarray, the GOP VP nominee "going rouge" and conservative "thinkers" like David Frum telling their party to give up on the White House. Why am I not giddy? Why is it that I walking on proverbial eggshells waiting for the other shoe to drop? My faith in the American people is simply non-existent at this point and I can't shake this feeling that we're still in the weeds.
Can somebody, anybody, please "Talk Me Down" as the incomparable Ms. Maddow would say; because I'm serious. I just don't believe we're winning. Any of it. I see the polls and they look so pretty, but I when I turn my head I just don't believe it. McCain says he's "got them right where we want them" and I can't shake the feeling that he knows something we don't. That he's in on the scam that's gonna steal this thing away. That Bible Spice was the best pick he could have made because she's got some wild connection to the conservative illuminating that's pulling the strings and it doesn't matter who votes or in what numbers because they're going to the White House. Period.
Okay, let me take off the tinfoil hat. But honestly, anyone else feel like it's too good to be true? Maybe it's because I've seen every Democrat I've wanted to win lose in the most heartbreaking fashion (then again I'm only 24 and don't have any clear recollection of the 1992 primary). Seriously, Gore...then Dean....then Kerry. I've seen this country push itself to the brink of sanity and rationality only to see the idiot masses vote barbeque and torture and trickle-down once again. I really think it's only a matter of time before it all falls apart again. Caribou Barbie said this today and sooner or later people are going to start believing her. I'm scared...really.
Maybe it's just because things are going too well for me right now (at the risk of sounding to MySpacey). I've got a wonderful girlfriend and we just moved into a house together. Things are going great at work and Penn State just beat Ohio State to stay undefeated and on track for the National Championship Game. And now it looks like our guy, my guy, the guy I wanted to vote for in 2004, the only politician who has ever moved me to tears is on the verge of taking the White House. Maybe I'm just uneasy rooting for a winner. It's been awhile.
Or maybe it's just that I don't believe it coming from them, the news media. I've been so used to them lying so much for so long that I've learned to completely mistrust them. Who knows, but I'm just very uncomfortable about all this. I hope it's just anxiety waiting for the election. Whatever the case may be, November 4 better get here soon 'cause I can't take much more of this.